5 more days!

i won't indulge you on my fantastic night... the fact that Ambien makes me feel extremely drunk. i had dinner, took the sleeping pill, matt rubbed my back for a bit, i fell crashing to my pillow- ready to be OUT for the count. seconds later.... i'm running for the bathroom. completely missed that. on the floor, on the wall. i only made it to the bathroom sink. then i'm standing there shaking, holding the robe that's falling off of me, looking at the nurse in bewilderment. STUPID pill. it makes me SO out of it-- it's creepy. the nurse dressed me in a new robe and then proceeded to give me a shot of phenagrin in my butt. lovely. they wouldn't let me drink anything... because i forgot to mention, that after i threw up and redressed, i drank water and threw that up. so at five this morning, they let me drink. matt got me an apple juice and ice pop from the maternity floor "stash." devoured those. and today, i feel awful. you know how you feel after throwing up-- jittery and weak. and i guess the phenagrin makes you feel sleepy. anywho, the morning nurse is going to see if the dr./dr's nurse can prescribe me another pill such as benadryl for sleeping. seriously, the ambien SCREWS me up.

i'm ready for this to be over. i have 5 more days. i keep reminding myself to be brave and hang in there. i'm getting so worn out. praying for strength.

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How old do people usually guess you are?
either my age or younger.


What friend do you tell the most to?
my mom and matthew hear it all.


How's your heart lately?
during my anxiety attacks like i had yesterday... or now?


Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
matthew


Have you ever punched a hole in the wall?
goodness no.


Where is the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
a car? that's hard to do.


What's in your cd player?
i have 5 CDs in my car.... lets see if I can remember... Duffy, Gavin DeGraw, Coldplay's new CD, that's all i can remember.


If you could do something differently, would you go back?
Nah, things happen for a reason.


What will you be doing in a half hour?
Hopefully sleeping.


Who is the last person you talked on the phone with?
Mom


Do you have any plans for Christmas?
it will be my son's first christmas!


Did you have plans today?
ha ha, are you kidding?!


Favorite quote from the song you're listening to?
life, flows from God.


What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
ha, not wearing bottoms! oh okay, other than these gorgeous mesh hospital undies.


Story behind your myspace name?
um... my name.


Are you sarcastic?
oh, dripping with it.


Are you shy?
Depends on the situation. definitely, NOT here at the hospital!!


Are you talkative?
Depends on the crowd.


What are you doing tomorrow?
sleeping and sitting in my comfy comfy bed. (rolls eyes)


Where was your last hug?
about 11 AM in my bed.


Do you secretly like someone?
well, THAT's not a secret!


What are you looking forward to?
Tuesday. but terrified.


Do you fall for people easily?
No. and not looking.


What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
grilled cheese. in fact i'm chewing it.


Have you ever kissed anyone named Trey?
Nope


How late did you stay up last night?
not sure... i'm in and out.


Can you live a day without TV?
well , not here. but after this...OH YES.


Would you ever become a vegetarian?
sometimes i can be.


What is wrong with you right now?
i am a pre-term prego woman.


What is the longest you have been in the car for a road trip?
oh long time.


Have you ever been around someone who was high?
Yes.


How many months are there until your birthday?
3... from october.

Did you like anyone last summer?
same person.