he's here...

liam foster tarpey
born: sept 17th, 1:44 am
4 lbs 12 oz, 18 inches long

our miracle baby.


will post more later...

learning to speak fetus

can you believe it... tomorrow is the day!

well, i'm praying tomorrow is. they plan on starting me on a pitocin drip around 8 AM. i keep hearing horror stories about that drug- how it won't work or i will be in labor for two days. i'm praying selishly, it all ends tomorrow. i asked if i could walk today to see if i could get things naturally started and they said, "NO." the dr. is in bozeman today giving a clinic and they don't want me going into labor tonight. curses. i told matt, "screw that. i'm walking around this room then!" i made him take me on a slightly bumpy wheel chair ride with jim and azure and the kids to a park with a creek. ellyse is hilarious. she has to do everything and be everywhere aiden is. oh little sisters!!!

just watched birth videos with matt. i think he is more freaked out than me.... i'm feeling fairly peaceful right now! matt said he is all for the epidural after we watched that clip!

i'm praying and praying- please pray and pray ... i know it's a selfish request and everything is in God's hands... so really ultimately i ask for peace and patience and to remember to fully put my trust in God.... i'm also asking that the pitocin works quickly, Liam comes tomorrow and NO C sections or any further complications!!!!!!

i'll let you know as soon as i get a chance what the news is.

thank you for your prayers and thoughts- you are much a part of this joy and i am SO blessed.

Liam says "see you soon." (i'm learning to speak fetus)

oh and P.S. my butt and lower back have never hurt this bad. i can't sit, i can't lay. i'm ready!!!

Liam and Matthew

today is Liam's 34 week celebration day. you can't all it a birthday, since he has not been BIRTHED yet. it's his gestational age and a huge cause for celebration. a lot of the medical professionals are amazed Liam is 34 weeks now and that i'm still here!

my induction is scheduled for tuesday. i'm terrified of giving birth, but i think i am finally starting to get brave... or convince myself that I CAN DO THIS. and the end result- my precious little man!

i also have to mention how wonderful matthew is. if i have to be all mushy and cliche, he IS indeed my soul mate. only my family can read my mind. we all speak our own "language;" vague pointing with even vaguer descriptions of "that thing." my family is loud and proud. like i said, only have i know my family to speak my language and completely, well as much as their 100% ..understand me- until matt. the other day matt was doing a crossword and we had just gotten done eating. i leaned over the fetal monitor and said "baby?"

matt's response was one of those "yesssss?" (es)

"do you know what i'm going to say?"

"you are going to ask me to put the food away and when i do, go get you a candy bar."

i still laugh thinking about this. that's EXACTLY what i was going to say. how did he know that?!?! even matt said there is no better match than the two of us. we're just the pieces that fit together! if you give a mouse a cookie, he will ask for some milk. ha ha.

i'm such a lucky woman. i am going to soon have two of the greatest men to be in love with. big cheesy grin here.

random.

i've just spent an hour watching coldplay videos (and amos lee). this is one of my favorite songs off their newest album "viva la vida." although i fully support our soldiers- this IS coldplay's first anti-war song. this is actually the 2nd video coldplay released for this song. the first included various political figures. aside from the anti war thematics, i find the tempo and composition to be extremely catchy and several of the lyrics to be quote worthy.



"when the future's architectured by a carnival of idiots on show, you'd better lie low."

i am highly amused at how much apple martin looks so much like her father, chris.

my butt hurts.

today ends "four more days" and turns into "three more days" within the next few hours.

i'm terrified. will i be able to handle labor? passing a baby out of my tiny little pee pee hole? yikes. i just have to remember the end result- my little Liam!!

in other news, my butt hurts. i had heating packs to target the pain... which is at the hip bone. the heat packs don't last long though.

well, almost monitor time aka Liam's time to shine.

i've been drinking water like a camel... that's good. although i store it nothing like a camel. in fact, i don't store it at all. thankfully, Liam is crushing my bladder, so i frequent the throne.

p.s. lego indian jones.... coolest game ever. i almost have it completed :)

5 more days!

i won't indulge you on my fantastic night... the fact that Ambien makes me feel extremely drunk. i had dinner, took the sleeping pill, matt rubbed my back for a bit, i fell crashing to my pillow- ready to be OUT for the count. seconds later.... i'm running for the bathroom. completely missed that. on the floor, on the wall. i only made it to the bathroom sink. then i'm standing there shaking, holding the robe that's falling off of me, looking at the nurse in bewilderment. STUPID pill. it makes me SO out of it-- it's creepy. the nurse dressed me in a new robe and then proceeded to give me a shot of phenagrin in my butt. lovely. they wouldn't let me drink anything... because i forgot to mention, that after i threw up and redressed, i drank water and threw that up. so at five this morning, they let me drink. matt got me an apple juice and ice pop from the maternity floor "stash." devoured those. and today, i feel awful. you know how you feel after throwing up-- jittery and weak. and i guess the phenagrin makes you feel sleepy. anywho, the morning nurse is going to see if the dr./dr's nurse can prescribe me another pill such as benadryl for sleeping. seriously, the ambien SCREWS me up.

i'm ready for this to be over. i have 5 more days. i keep reminding myself to be brave and hang in there. i'm getting so worn out. praying for strength.

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How old do people usually guess you are?
either my age or younger.


What friend do you tell the most to?
my mom and matthew hear it all.


How's your heart lately?
during my anxiety attacks like i had yesterday... or now?


Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
matthew


Have you ever punched a hole in the wall?
goodness no.


Where is the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
a car? that's hard to do.


What's in your cd player?
i have 5 CDs in my car.... lets see if I can remember... Duffy, Gavin DeGraw, Coldplay's new CD, that's all i can remember.


If you could do something differently, would you go back?
Nah, things happen for a reason.


What will you be doing in a half hour?
Hopefully sleeping.


Who is the last person you talked on the phone with?
Mom


Do you have any plans for Christmas?
it will be my son's first christmas!


Did you have plans today?
ha ha, are you kidding?!


Favorite quote from the song you're listening to?
life, flows from God.


What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
ha, not wearing bottoms! oh okay, other than these gorgeous mesh hospital undies.


Story behind your myspace name?
um... my name.


Are you sarcastic?
oh, dripping with it.


Are you shy?
Depends on the situation. definitely, NOT here at the hospital!!


Are you talkative?
Depends on the crowd.


What are you doing tomorrow?
sleeping and sitting in my comfy comfy bed. (rolls eyes)


Where was your last hug?
about 11 AM in my bed.


Do you secretly like someone?
well, THAT's not a secret!


What are you looking forward to?
Tuesday. but terrified.


Do you fall for people easily?
No. and not looking.


What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
grilled cheese. in fact i'm chewing it.


Have you ever kissed anyone named Trey?
Nope


How late did you stay up last night?
not sure... i'm in and out.


Can you live a day without TV?
well , not here. but after this...OH YES.


Would you ever become a vegetarian?
sometimes i can be.


What is wrong with you right now?
i am a pre-term prego woman.


What is the longest you have been in the car for a road trip?
oh long time.


Have you ever been around someone who was high?
Yes.


How many months are there until your birthday?
3... from october.

Did you like anyone last summer?
same person.

i'm still here, which is a huge answer to prayer. the dr. and nurses are amazed that i'm still here and still pregnant- in which case i just remember how many people are praying for us; there are people we don't even know!